What I miss the most of not having three children around is my free time, the time for myself. Now the “me time” is so short and sometimes I’m so tired that I only want to rest.
I only have about an hour, maybe an hour and half after lunch when Feven takes a nap and Feromsa sometimes entertains himself with something, and I highlight the word “sometimes”. And then at night, when all the children go to bed, I have another couple of hours, but the problem is, or I’m too tired to do something productive and just want to relax, or I have a ton of “urgent” things to finish (laundry, cleaning, etc).
And doing something creative requires not only a lot of time and work but also concentration and a fresh mind, both of which I don’t have…
Sometimes I think I’m too old to raise small children. I feel like a mummy, not a mommy!
One trick I use is to concentrate just in the very minute I’m living, the mere second. If I’m at the park with the kids, I just live that moment, not worrying for the things I should be doing, or want to do besides being with the children. It has made my life easier, more meaningful in a way, just being there in that instant.
I stopped worrying about the future, it really makes no sense, there is nothing there yet. This doesn’t mean I don’t have plans, but I need to concentrate in one thing at a time, everything has its rewards, and if you look at the big picture, it really doesn’t matter the activity in which you are involved, but the commitment to it.
Yes, I still miss my “free time” but I’ve found a way in which every second IS my free time.

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